“A new baby is like the beginning of all things – wonder, hope, a dream of possibilities.”
–Eda J. Le Shan
I told myself to suck it up, the only way I was ever going to be a better photographer was by doing things that put me out of my comfort zone. Learn by doing. I teach this everyday in my classroom, yet for some reason, I couldn’t convince myself in the moment. That’s when it clicked, I had to get over it and so that’s what I did. I got over it.
A couple of months ago, a friend of mine asked me to come to the hospital the day her new son was born and photograph him, with his new family. I was terrified. First of all, I didn’t want the responsibility of possibly not capturing such a precious moment for this family and second, this was a first for me and I didn’t want to disappoint. Negative thoughts were creeping into my head: “The lighting will be too harsh….the baby is going to be fussy….the other kids won’t cooperate….what will I do if these turn out ugly?? Do I have my Aperture set right?? Is my ISO okay?? Ugh.” You see, I tend to be a tad obsessive when it comes to work. My friends know this, my husband knows this and even my students know this. It’s okay, I have come to terms with it and instead of letting it turn into doubt, I use it to my advantage. I had to remind myself that I was asked to photograph a brand-new (5 hours to be exact), human being’s beginning story and what a wonderful story the images could tell. I’m so glad I met the challenge…..oh, the dream of possibilities. I am such a lucky girl.